Just like the world is ours....

Today is a bright and sunny day for the midwest. It's one of those days that make you want to forget everything and just live in the moment. Forget that you have bipolar and that you're out of medication and have no money to buy more - forget that you already blew your diet and it's not even noon - forget that you're 70lbs overweight, all that crap that holds you down.

Instead of thinking about all this, I think I'll write another chapter in my novel. Get some cleaning done. Dance in my office. Go for a run so that I feel free and can forget.

Isn't that what we all try so very hard to do - forget - until life comes along and crashes us back to the ground?
We self medicate - with food, coffee, street drugs, sex. Just one more fix, then it'll all be fine.

But it's not fine.

Society says that we are less than normal. That because we need "drugs" to survive, then we are misfits. Not normal. After all, it really is society that holds us back. It's the "normal" that holds us back. Normality screams in our face - "being overweight is not good, not normal". God forbid that you put on that weight trying to become normal, between the meds and self medicating.

I actually read an article recently that said that it wasn't good for people "like us" to set new years resolutions - that they actually cause more depression when we don't accomplish them. Bullshit.

Depression is caused when we set goals too high for us, when we set goals that society wants us to set. Losing weight. Better job. More money. Less coffee (?!?!?).

Slow and steady ALWAYS wins the race.

So today, I'm going to forget about what society says. I'm gonna go for a run, dance, write, and dream about having a pet. I'm gonna blast Lady Gaga and Ke$ha. Oh, and probably dust. My house needs that. :)

Aurora